Snow fell
lightly upon the ground. The day felt so peaceful. Little did the world know, a
volcano was about to erupt from inside me and spew angry black dust all over
the surrounding areas. My heart throbbed and I thought about how I hadn’t eaten
in over a week. Well, small things when I absolutely had to force myself, but
other than that I had refused to consume. I was the odd one out at Christmas
dinner, although I still adorned a decorative, albeit fake, smile. I had
learned things over vacation that I had never wanted to know. My heart had
hardened to protect itself. Inside, a wounded and jaded heart slowly pumped
away, and a cast of iron had forged itself around the pitiful remains.
I had spent
most of my time with my family and Tammy. They did their best to distract me
from the whole situation. One thing was for sure, my parents were growing more
and more infuriated with Cain’s rising stupidity level. They were about five
seconds from lift off when I informed them of the rumor I had heard from, not
only one, but multiple different sources. They all had said the same thing: he
lied.
Thursday
came around, the first day after vacation, and I knew that I could no longer
contain what bubbled under my surface. I wanted answers and I wanted them now.
Cain walked into homeroom wearing a slight smile- it made my heart lurch and my
stomach clench. His eyes met mine and I knew he saw it, “What’s wrong?”
I stood up, “I
need to talk to you.”
I knew my
words would worry him. Good. Let him sweat this one out. We walked out onto the
porch and he came close to me, “What do we need to talk about?”
“You lied to
me,” I kept my emotions hidden deeply inside me even though every fiber of my
being was screaming for tears.
He looked
confused and wary at the same time, “What? What are you talking about, Claire?”
“I heard
what you said, Cain! I heard that you dumped me for that dumb skank, Leah, who
already has a boyfriend because you think she’s super-hot and you want to fuck
her. Three days after you tell me you want to be alone and figure things out,
you make a plan to move in on her because you think her boyfriend doesn’t care.
Newsflash, she’s way out of your league and he does care. Probably more than you ever did about me. Maybe you
should have been focusing on our
relationship instead of her ass in those fucking yoga pants you apparently like
so much! So, here it is. This is your last chance to realize that you made a
mistake. After today, I will never come back. I’ve spent enough nights crying
over you and pretending I was alright. Apparently you aren’t the only one who
can lie,” My voice was even and cold.
He just
stood there, speechless, taking in everything I had to say. We stood there,
just looking at each other, as silence came between us and entangled us within
its grasp. Finally he said, “I really don’t know how to respond to this.”
I smirked,
partially out of complete and utter relief that I had spoken my mind, and
partially because I couldn’t believe he was not only giving me no answer, but
he was letting me slip away once again. “Wrong answer,” I responded and walked
away. I knew he would have to follow me, we had homeroom together, but I still
got the closure I had wanted, even without answers. I proved who I was and so
did he. His chance was gone and he would realize that he would never find another
girl like me. He would never find another girl who treated him like her knight
in shining armor, her hero, her prince. And, most of all, I knew that I would
be happy again.
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